Mengapa harus cinta....

mengapa harus cinta

kelu ada yang berpisah oh

tak ku mungkin mengerti....

mengapa harus kasih

pastikan jua berakhir sayang

tak sanggup ku menanggung pilu ini....

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He took the earliest morning flight, which somewhat angered me. It had been a couple of weeks since we last met, and the next meeting would be ... what... next year?? Am i not important enough for him to stay a few hours longer?

I kept looking at the watch. 45 minutes more…. 38….25…. Why won’t the time just freeze? Why couldn’t things stay this way? Why do we have to go back to our mundane tasks and daily living? For the past few days, I was happy. Very happy. If everything is taken away from me, in order to get those happy moments, I wouldn’t blink an eye. I would grab that moment and die with a smile on my face.

20…. He kissed my cheeks and squeezed my hands. My heart ached. I saw him disappeared down the escalator. I felt empty. That familiar emptiness…. Oh!! So damn familiar. I have known and lived those feelings. Somehow, it managed to haunt me wherever, whenever…. Like a curse..... Like a best friend.

I was blurry eyed, too oblivious of the surroundings. The hustle and bustle of the airport seemed like something distant. When he called, I almost choked. I didn’t say much though only God knows how much I wanted to say I love him so, wanted him to know how I felt…

Love hurts. The separation hurts. Not knowing what the future holds for you, hurts even more. And it’s killing me slowly, softly. Will it be better if you don’t love in the first place? Then you are not capable of getting hurt. You won’t miss those things you never had, because it wasn't there in the first place. Perhaps… that’s an easier way out. Do those lovely, warm, tickly sensations surpass the sorrow, ache and hurt?

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Mengapa harus cinta…

If only i knew the answer to that…