When the heart speaks...

I know everyone is dying to know what happened to my fix-fix date (pinjam word Baine :) ). Nothing… Nano…. Nil….

He`s too busy to call, couldn`t be bothered I guess. Maybe flying off again to god-knows-where. I`ve known a few guys who are so into their careers that they don`t have time for anything else. Maybe a few flings here and there. Not a single phone call, let alone a lifetime commitment.

But something DID happen to me over the past few days. I met a guy. It was pre-planned, yes. After a few conversations over the phone, I took a liking to him. Surviving few traumatic episodes with the opposite sex, I was indeed skeptical. I had built a fort around me, determined not to let it crack. I`ll be my most obnoxious, notorious self. See if he could pass the test.

But what happened after the meet, was beyond expectations. It sent shivers thru my spine. Left my head spinning, my hair standing at its end, my mouth dry, my eyes blurry, my knees weak, my tummy with thousands of flying butterflies, my wings spreading wide taking me far away into space…

We talked, we smiled, we laughed, we stared into each others eyes in silence. I mocked him, he teased me. We talked about our fears, our dreams, the hurt in the past, the hope for the future. We talked about things that matters to the heart.

How could this have happened?? Why did I let myself into this? What was I thinking?? No… I wasn`t thinking. I was feeling it. That familiar warm feelings, deep inside the abyss of my soul. The feelings that I`ve shut, trapped, locked in. The fort slowly crumbled. The adrenaline at its full speed again.

I fell in love….